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My first memory is a long, connected series of dreams

My first memory is a long, connected series of dreams- so intense that they most likely wiped out all of the memories beforehand. I was 3 years old.Well, it starts off in a field in front of a large brick house. I am led to believe that my grandmother lives there, yet I cannot be sure because from the outside, this house looks as if it is on the shore of a teeming ocean of horror- not standard horror- but horror that for me has come in the form of textures and slow noises ever since this dream.

Inside this house, my mom and my little brother (and me of course) are led into a large white auditorium which, instead of seats, houses small, faceless ice-cherubs playing with small white balls. At the very end is a large white bed with a polar bear skin on it, and we stay there at th head of the room for awhile, just staring at them.

I am then walking down the front stairs of this house, and the walls are covered with some sort of red, gilded ‘design’. To my right is a large glass case built into the wall, with lion figurines in it. There is a volcano, and I press a red button to make it spout on the lions. It is mirrored; reflected. The lions appear to be covered in lava millions of times over. They melt.

Across the hall is a place I know about immediately, yet both dread and look forward to entering- it’s a secret room with no door that only I can go through- in it is nothing but a small table with my Aunt Connie seated at it, and rows and rows of large, talking rubber plants. My aunt appears very lonely, and I feel as if I could sit at that table with her, but I can’t. There is one chair, and while I feel somewhat capable in this room, the rubber plants scare me. I leave this room knowing i have been irrecoverably changed; in essence, a microcosm of the entire dream. Continue reading ‘My first memory is a long, connected series of dreams’

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My earliest memory

I remember this one time, when I was somewhere between the ages of three and five. I was standing outside a small convenience store in Vancouver with my mother, she had just bought me a scratch and win ticket for reasons now unknown. Anyhow I was standing on the sidewalk scratching vigorously at the thick piece of paper with a borrowed penny, more thrilled at the layer of paint I was removing from the ticket than by the possibility of winning money. After this brief frenzy of penny scratching, I made sure that the entire surface was cleaned of the removable substance. With my task complete I was gazing at the small area I had cleared, the vague notion of checking if I had won anything in mind, unable to tell though I held It up in the air at my mother and hollered at her. “MOM did I win anything?” She looked at the ticket for only two or three seconds before declaring that I had won two dollars. After this point my memory of the whole scene grows fuzzy and I cannot recall if she took the ticket and gave me two dollars. Which would mean that I had possibly not won anything and she was just humoring my small child self. Or the other option is that we went back into the store we were standing in front of and she exchanged the ticket for two loonies (as twoonies did not yet exist) where upon I probably bought candy with them. As I can’t remember which of those endings is the correct one, maybe theres even some third unknown possibility that I have no idea of.

Anyway thats the story of my first memory :P

 Dalarius

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